From my beginning as a small child in PA,
to the one I Am now...in Washington...expanding into myself.
The Celebration continues, as we grow older..
There is no 'now to be in' only embracing and trusting who I am.
I can't do that if I think anyone else knows better than me, looking within means trusting what I am, who I am, alone. (with no outside evidence needed)
What I am is one who distrusts anything I don't know from inside out, and who embraces only what I do know from inside out.
I am not sure at all there is a God, creator, afterlife or any of that. Even after knowing myself so acutely before and thinking there was God and I am that, I can't know for sure, It could be a function of my brain, chemicals, etc.
What is important is that I believe myself, trust myself, my doubts, my unknowing. This is the crux of it all. "To Thine Ownself be True"!Shakespeare knew!
To be happy with myself with no answers what so ever,and no one to guide me anywhere, because there doesn't seem to be anyplace to get to.
Contentment, bliss are created by these acceptances for me..to be deeply settled with not knowing, not belonging, not being like anyone else.
SmS 08